..Dan sebenarnya. Thou who made me wrote this.. Happy Valentines day to YOU

Bila sikurus tinggi dan si gemuk pendek bersatu tepat di angka 12 malam nanti, genaplah -_- bulan hari keramat buat sejarah diri aku.mungkin juga engkau. *theres no relevancy to disclose the duration i guess*

even tak lama mana, tapi tempoh masa itu sudah cukup untuk aku belajar banyak benda tentang kau, tentang perjuangan kau, pasang surut kau, tentang hidup kau, susah senang kau, sakit kau, sihat kau dan sejuta segala satu macam benda tentang kau. Kalau aku kumpulkan semua tu, dah cukup rasanya untuk aku buat hantaran meminang..accept its not in the form of origami by the shape of heart nor the yatch with a tilted sail nor swan or any other form that mak handam squidlike-softy-designer finger can afford to fold it into.

walau mungkin kau tak sedar atau mahu pun kau sedar yang pada awalnya aku pun juga seperti kau sekarang ni. aku juga manusia.  hebat cik karma bermain masa, 'memusingkan meja' tepat pada masa kau memutuskan untuk berhenti.stop dalam bahasa yahudi nya. tomemasu dalam bahasa kesukaan aku. mungkin juga salah aku, jual pada harga yang tak sepatutnya..aku terfikir adakah kau tak mampu mengupul kesabaran untuk membayar harganya.hmp.. mungkin juga salah kau sebab tak reti untuk berjimat cermat, sehinga terlalu boros berbelanja..buatkan kau tak mampu untuk membayar? hmp.yang ini aku tak rasa betul.sebab engkau memang seorang yang sangat pemurah dan penyayang yang betul2 membuatkan mata kail yang engkau cucuk kan umpan tercangkuk jauh ke dalam hati ikan kecil yang so called naive ini. dan tak perlu kau tanya sakitnya untuk mencungkil keluar mata kail yang kau dah tinggalkan itu.. DIA saja yang tahu.

SPECIAL. bagi aku perkataan yang sangat bermakna. mungkin tidak pada kau..'its just a word, just say it out for fcuk sake.. so will stop the tears'..fikir kau. terpulang. persepsi individu. mungkin juga kau benar2 maksudkan nya. Alangkah bagus kan kalau begitu?sigh.

DAN SEBENARNYA..oh, aku baru tersedar .. aku juga mempunyai satu punat HAZARD  yang jika di tekan, sengaja ditekan, 'eh, tak sengaja lah tekan..sorry sangat3!!', selalu sangat di tekan mahupun sejuta segala semua lagi cara menekan yang satu batch kemasukan dengannya.aku sangat berharap yang engkau tak bermaksud sebegitu.ala2 terlepas cakap.terlazer . kerana ia juga akan menimbulkan satu perasaan yang aku anggap "okey...... this is it..sorry" (baca dengan tone blurr)... sumpah aku harap itu perkara terakhir yang akan keluar diantara dua bibir monggel engkau. bagi aku, itu adalah BUKTI KUKUH yang aku memang sudah terpadam dari senarai teristimewa.sesuatu yang meletakkan aku di tempat yang lebih exklusif pada diri kau. tapi sekarang aku sudah tiada beza dengan mereka2 yang berada di  sekeliling kau. aku orang kebanyakan. shatered juga rasanya kan?shyite+sigh+sedih ~ Damage is done.NOKTAH

... exegerate.mungkin DOT&DOT&DOT.

Juga ketahuilah..mengenali kau adalah ibarat si budak getah menjumpai harta karun One Piece.believe it.its true. the best deymn thing ever happen to me. tapi betul, seperti kata kau, "What goes around comes Around.." maybe i am the one who have no courage to climb higher, or maybe you are just to scared of falling yourslef..again. i have no say to that.mungkin juga engkau tak faham apa maksud semua ini. maaflah, penulisan aku dalam bahasa jepun amat terhad buat sementara waktu..

jadi untuk kau, aku ucapkan TERIMA KASIH. Mungkin perjalanan kita akan merentassilang lagi di masa akan datang. mungkin juga tidak.tapi aku sangat berharap pada yang positive. Apa yang aku harap, hanyalah yang terbaik untuk kita di masa mendatang. I LOVED YOU. I WILL ALWAYS LIKE YOU. I HOPE TO FALL AGAIN ONE DAY THOUGH..

oh, JSUK.. ia jatuh adalah pada  HARI KEKASIH.   

Understanding ... MOIR

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.

Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.

Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.

Idealists are relatively rare, making up no more than 15 to 20 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

Idealists at Work
Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. They are naturally drawn to working with people and are gifted with helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potential both on, and off, the job.

Because you live in anticipation of an exciting future, in your ideal job you will be asked to stretch your imagination on a continual basis. Existing ideas, individuals and groups of people, products, services, and the relationships between these things can trigger flashes of insight about how "what is" might unfold into "what might be." You feel rewarded where you feel free to share your insights with people who encourage your creativity and who support the unpredictable process by which you narrow down the stream of ideas into innovations that are meaningful within the scheme of your personal values. You are likely to be comfortable taking on a leadership role, so long as it doesn’t place you in an arbitrary hierarchy.