envy others, but are also confident about myself. But sometimes i wish i could be confident about myself without the masks. i clean before people come over, even though am typically a mess. i dress up or wear revealing clothes, show off my tan, tattoos, and body, because i feel like it will get attention and make me feel worth something.
Sexiness is something i value, but i really want to be admired for my heart. I want someone to see through the masks and love me for me, but i sometimes don't know who that person is and i fear opening up to someone because i don't want to be hurt.I wish you could be like someone else, trade places just for a day, to see what it's like to be perfect.
I like lists and getting things done, but I rarely finish them. I want to be loved, so badly, for who I am and i am just waiting for the right person to show me that it's okay to rest in who i was made to be, and not who i am always trying to be..
till the next writing ...
mata2 ne
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